Missing Him

It's been raining here all night. Lightning, thunder, the works. It rains here a lot, but we rarely get thunder and lightning. I love storms like these. Reminds me of a good midwest thunderstorm. I always want to go outside and sit on my porch during these storms and just experience it. Preferably with my husband.

Days are easy. I'm not with him during the day when he is home. Nights are usually easy until I go to bed. Nights like these really make me miss him though. The satellite has been going in and out, so I turned the TV off and I've been reading. It's not even that I want someone to talk to at night, I just want him physically here. I want the presence of another person in the house. I want to look over and see him playing computer games or watch a tv show with him.

I haven't broke down and cried too much during this deployment. When I do, it's usually because I'm so stressed and something just sets me off. Tonight, I just miss him.